Truth Beneath The Eyes

Jack for the Queen

Why is it everything coming and happening now ?

And yet , you still don't know whether you'll accept it or deny it .

But yes , you already thinking that you own this game by your way .

You sure forget that you just can manage it but not decide the result of the game .

Come on now , stand your face up and look me into the eyes ,

Now we can both see the truth , the reality beneath through the eyes ,

You know what I saw in your eyes ? I saw lots of things that you hiding .

I saw a sadness that lies deep in your heart , 

I saw some love that you put it into a disguise ,

I saw lots of pain that you hid in your pride ,

And last but not least , I didn't saw anybody else in there except myself in there .

I saw the real truth from your lies , I saw there is nobody by your-side ,

But never get worried my lady , I'm always gonna be with always whenever you're feeling lonely ,

I'll try to guide you to the right path , Will try to correct you whenever you're doing something wrong ,

Don't be scared by your past , Don't let it keep haunting your life , You know I'll be here for you if you're scared . I'll protect you no matter what .

Through your rise and fall , I'll be supporting you from the back ,

You will always be my priority , My number one and my everything ,

Yes my lady , I've already acknowledge that you were not mine ,

But just to let you know my lady , you are my everything for this moment .

The Beauty & The Beast

"the hater seeing this upon us"

You and I were never meant to be together , not even us can fight this destiny . Nobody not seeing we were perfect for each other , and also people not gonna ever know that we were made for each other in this world . Once we were together , we just make our invisible wall , a barrier that none will be through it . We could stand and fight any obstacle and sticky place . 

Yes , I'm clearly notice that you will never ever gonna be mine , or should I say that we're look alike " The beauty and The Beast" . You have a look like an artist , like a princess and never-less than a beauty . Still here I am looking like vigilante , like a thief or burglar and never gonna be a good looking person into the eyes of everybody who's around . 

But hey , if you love me with your all heart , you not gonna let them be the judges for who I am right ? But why my lady ? Why did you turn out on me ? Because I'm not in the same level as you ? Because everyone around you who will gonna talk bad about you being with me ? Because you can't stand all those critics upon  us anymore ? It's okay my lady , I already figured this thing will be happen someday somehow , these thing happens quite a lot you know .

You still calling yourself a loyal lover ? You just can please kiss my butt my lady for claiming yourself with that title , it doesn't fit u at all , not even close my lady . Your words is not worthy at all , they all just a piece of thrash , not even one that I can take to hold on with . And yet still you calling me a cheater ? You calling me that just because you want me to be gone by your sight and side right ? 

Yes my lady , I'll fulfill your wish , your desire . Yes my lady , it's my only job , granted all your wish without no failure . This time also will gonna be you last wish that I'm gonna get it finish . But keep my word my lady , maybe my last word to you , I'll be forever love you with all hate , I will always that you'll find someone that can care you better than me , not worst than me . And last not least , we will never ever gonna see or meeting each other from now on . 

My Lady ,

So Long & Good Bye ,

-Your Beast-

Forever Friends

This post was written by me while my tears is flowing down slowly . I know it's kinda a humiliation for a guys  to drop their tears , but it's worth it when your tears is for one that you care most . Let be not specify "you care most" is just focusing on your love one , it could be someone else . You know who , it might be your friend , your best friend , your lover , your dad , your mom or anyone that got some related to you .

Yes , now I'm crying out loud for my best friend . This special friend of mine , is a girl , not knowing to long but I feel comfortable with her . The way she talks , she's blabbering and the way she laugh , it's like I knew her for long time , like years . It's the friendship that everyone could wish for . Why I'm sad about her ? Not worth it ? You know what , I got nobody else but friends in this world , so really freaking care about my friends , and she is totally among them .

Friendship is all matter and the only things u need in this all new era world , Yeah I know , it's just will work with trust , honest and loyalty . And there I go , doing thing without thinking and blew some shit over my friendship between me and her . Seriously I didn't ever meant to do that on her , forsaken God , I'm trying to be honest with her all the time , but you know , I'm still a human being that gonna make some stupid mistake . Now all i can do is just waiting for her to forgive me or just leave here all alone by my-side .

Damn right , i can even think straight when I'm sad like this . please , can someone do anything with it ? I'm sick of being alone . Just continue blogging later on , gonna get my head into this or all of this not gonna be worth reading it .  But for you my friend , I love you )':

-For my Forever Best Friend -

Sincerely your sorry friend .

The Memory Remains

I'm always missing him , but never I can hear his voice , never I can play-around with him , never can I argue for some decision with him and I never ever got to see his face .

The only thing that I have with me was just pieces of memories , the memory that we all gathering together , a picture of us Eid's day , and a picture after having fun on that day .

It's still clear in my head , that the time's when death was coming near him , all of the things happened on that day keeps playing in my head like it was just yesterday , the hands that keep weeping tears that flow slowly from eyes to cheek , can't keep holding tears when the death news was being told , I could still feel it , there was you lying without a breath , me and also them being together crying over you .

And after the times eventually passed over that day , there was me , sitting alone out of blue sky , emptied mind , kept missing him half-passed dead . Only if I can reverse the time , if I could spent more time with him , if I just could be there beside him until his last breath .

Dear my late uncle , I wish you will be resting in peace there , in the partition , alone . But no worry , I'll always prying for you uncle , your name will always be in my pray , I just have to teach and let my heart to be strong without you , to be in future Syawal without you . 

From your missing nephew .

 -Al-Fatihah-

About An Imaginary Girl

Every time when I turn on the TV on the right time , 

Even if I'm hearing bad news about the world , 

A news that's going to make my jaw drop and gloomy face ,

I never ever care all about that at this moment ,

I just want to hear your voice coming into my ears ,

Yes , your voice always like you were talking to me ,

Just with that reason you making me feels perfect ,

Also the reason for me to live and laugh at the moment .

Your gentle smile , your sexy eyes , your weird words ,

But there also sometimes unpredictable like the weather ,

Just unpredictable like you , without having to fix anything ,

You just naturally adorable and so lovable for me .

There is no more other person that can be like you .

When you silently look into my eyes and laugh ,

By that moment , you makes me shy before laughing along .

Even though there's lot of people don't acknowledge me ,

I've still keeping my shoulder straight and being more confident ,

You are my only one and the only person I'll have .

A little bit more from yesterday ,

A little bit more than the beginning ,

It's a feeling that only both of us know ,

Just let it be our little secret , YEAH !

The Dreams Of A Thousand Man

All I ever really wanted for my life is just to be an average guy in this world , no more no less and would also be making an average living in life ...

And then I'd marry a girl who's not that super pretty neither super ugly , and maybe after getting marriage , me and my wife will just having two kids , that just will be enough I guess . 

The first kid should be a lovely and adorable  girl and the second one must be a strong , tough and brave young boy , and it's just will be perfect family numbers ...

 After a couple of years , my both kids will be all grown up and that's the time I'll be thinking about getting retire and having a heaven-like resting at home sweet home with my lovely wife and that will just happen when my daughter's get married , mean while my son have already becomes a very successful businessman or highly promote in a large company .

 By that time , I will be spending all my day left by sleeping soundly , resting on a super-duper soft and comfortable couch while reading papers and playing chess with grand-kids or maybe some kind of future made robot . Yeah right , what a nice , perfect , carefree and leisurely retirement and old life I will have until I'm gone from this world . Oh yes , right , there is one thing , I also hoping that I would die of old age before my wife did  ...

 Yeah , that's right people , this is the exactly what kind of the life I've always wanted . And yet I , still end up exerting all way up , that is so not like me guys , way so not me ... 

Well , even though I wanted to finish my life as a regular guy like I wanted , I still need to go out there , getting my ass up and also getting myself into lots of sticky situation now and I will have to try my hardest to figure out about how and what should I do to get my myself loose and my ass get through all those sticky situation I'm facing ...